Ayeesha W.

           Photography by Maluk Jones

If you’re reading this, clear your whiteboard.

I look at where I am now and I'm proud.

I’m comfortable, and I can do as I please 

I’m king.  

I’m leveling up,  

Growing older.  

Growing bored.  

Growing... 

Look at myself in the mirror and it's another person  

But that's supposed to be me 

At least, a reflection of myself  

I've matured.  

Can I remember my younger self?  

Show them mercy for their choices?  

Consequences of memory and daydreams mixed as I recall what's  

Real. 

At least I know that I had fun  

And that I was great then as I was now  

My standards are different than me from the 20’s  

Mind and eyes unknowing of the world  

Shielded, like a table during the earthquake drills  

My favorite one, it was the easiest to get and the least likely to happen  

Fire and tornado drills made me so 

Tired.

Where is the concept of time?  

I have been listening to Kids by MGMT and have been pacing around my entire

apartment for 2 whole hours.  

Since I have done all my work, I’ll rewatch all the Monster High movies! 

A great way of self-care! 

Patting myself on the back I am simply  

Proud  

In my bed.

Ayeesha W., University of South Carolina

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